people-watchingoctober 2021
acrylic & posca pen on canvas 14 x 14 in i made this at the start of my first in-person semester of college after the quarantine era of covid-19. it was my first time consistently being in manhattan and interacting with new people and strangers on the street. i feel there's a sense of voyeurism when occupying space here, like everyone's got their eyes on my every move, what i wear, what i say, yada yada. it made me anxious and scared, and i felt very alone for those first few months. this piece was the result!
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bad luck charmfebruary 2023
graphite on mixed media paper, digitally collaged 8 x 11 in. i feel as if i have extremely bad luck in the casual sense. i don't usually win stupid little lotteries/giveaways, positive spontaneous things don't really happen to me, and i don't find myself stumbling on miracles often like others. but in the more serious sense, i fear that i bring an air of misfortune to all i encounter. a shattered mirror is a cultural representation of superstitious bad luck, but also represents that feeling that arises in me all too frequently.
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i say too much !february 2023
ink and posca pen on paper, digitally collaged one thing about me is that i'm talkative. i like sharing little details of my day with others and telling stories! but i fear it becomes too much at times. this collage started out as a charcoal sketch from a drawing class exercise, and then redone in ink and posca pen with digital text!
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AREUSICKOFME (running on empty)march 2023
digitally drawn in medibang paint 8 x 10 in. i have a very loud, enthusiastic personality at times. if i have the ability to get tired of it, that definitely means that others do as well. despite being proved otherwise, that little voice in my head has the power to convince me that people decide to hate me! isn't that fun! i'm also fascinated by medical paraphernalia so i decided to play with that in this piece.
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everybody does
april 2023
digitally drawn in procreate 10 x 10 in. inspired by a julien baker song, this pseudo-self portrait represents the fear of wholly being seen by outsiders to my mind. do they see right through me? can they tell that there's something up with me? if they know me really well, are they put off by who i really am?
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erraticismapril 2023
digital collage 10 x 10 in. i made this on a dreary tuesday as i was having an episode. intrusive thoughts are not fun, especially on a particularly stressful day where things can escalate at the drop of a hat. it's hard not to listen to those voices telling you these awful things; to completely cut people who love you out of your life, to become completely unreachable and start anew, to become cold for no good reason. this collage is made up of a digital journal entry and song lyrics from the playlist i was listening to at the time.
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don't make art!march 2023
a4 digital collage throughout the process of piecing together this exhibition, i felt as if i couldn't complete it. how can i call myself an "artist" when i know so many others who are way more worthy of that title? i'm nothing but an amateur. when first writing down the plans for this entire thing, i got so annoyed with myself that i scribbled this exact statement alongside the concept statement: "being an artist SUCKS! DON'T MAKE ART!". every single time i went to open my notebook, my own words stared me down.
yes, calling yourself an artist is frustrating. making art is as well. however, even if it's bad in your eyes, it'll be good in the eyes of others. it serves a purpose. and that's something to live by. |